I don't know what to actually have to do.

I'm trying to write down something about myself,butcould not find anything.
I,m a very very ugly person in looking and in nature,as well.
But, beleive me , in my subconcious mind I dream that there is a girl to love me,but my inferior complex console to say "Being a so uglyfaced person and bad in nature,how can you think to be loved by your dream girl" .

I can't write farthar down to it.

So.......